I’m on countdown mode.
Only three more sleeps and I will be on a plane to Guadalajara.
I keep thinking I’m fine with this plan, this self-designed month-long writing retreat that I booked so long ago. But then, I wake up in the middle of the night and feel the need to practise deep slow breathing to stave off some random short-of-breath panic.
Why, oh why, do I want to leave my lovely life?
I feel like I’m just getting into a groove again. I love playing in my art studio. I’ve got my whole exercise routine down pat. I’m connecting with old friends and making new ones. And with Kevin’s drastically-reduced work week, we’re spending more time hanging out together and I like it.
I like it alot.
I loved reading Michael Shapiro’s, A Sense of Place. In it, he interviews some of the big-names in travel writing. Each one describes their love of home, their adoration of their life and routine and how hard it is to leave and yet, each one of them describes leaving that chosen haven, over and over and over.
I’m not sure what this all means. But I know too, that as much as I can be described as a bit of an extrovert, there is a part of me that craves the monastic. I like the idea of scaring myself a little, of throwing myself into a completely new situation and hunkering into my self-made cave to see what percolates onto the page.
This is not going to be a travel-y trip. There will be no touring about. I fly to Guadalajara, spend two days there and then take a bus to Lake Chapala, a town where I’ve never been and where I have rented a small casita for the month.
There I will establish a different routine. One with writing and walking and writing and walking.
This is either going to prove to be a really good idea or it is going to be hell.
Then again, it might be like everything else in life, where it is simply the dual nature of all things. It’s that ol’ Yin and Yang, Sturm and Drang, To and Fro, Flin and Flon.
There might have to be a few margaritas in my future too. Luckily, there’s this…
PS If you are interested in doing your own art residency. Check out this cool link at ResArts.